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Sometime in May

By Tara Zandra | May 19, 2014

Hey look, a pic of me and my kiddos taken on Mother’s Day. The fact that the one on the left is 15 is the source of many sad feelings right now. I adore her so, and things in her dance and personal life aren’t so great right now and frankly I’m not sure that’s going to change anytime soon. And like a good mother, I suffer the guilt. Mind you, she doesn’t make me feel guilty and is frankly a pretty fantastic teen (iffin’ I do say so myself), but I want everything to be rainbows and unicorns for her. And it hurts that I can’t make it so.


The one on the right, ooh the 9 year old. Things are pretty darn good for her right now so I’m saved from feeling guilt times 2.

I’ve had some very down times this year for whatever reason- nothing specific, just is. Can’t say I’ve been much fun to be around at all this year, by anyone’s standards. Which considering this is May, that’s a long time.

So I’ll try going back to blathering on here again. And I’m going to play a little less Candy Crush and spend some time trying to catch up on the blogs I enjoy reading.

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One Response to “Sometime in May”

  1. Mel Says:
    May 23rd, 2014 at 1:35 pm

    Great picture. I know what you mean about the guilt. I’ve gone through some painfully guilty times as a mom, it was way worse in WA but it still happens from time to time now. I’d love more unicorns and rainbows in my kiddo’s life too but at this age it’s just too complex to make that happen. Sigh.