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By Tara Zandra | January 7, 2013

I gave the girls today off from lessons so I could prepare for lessons for the week. I felt I needed the extra day and they needed one day of basically nothing going on except one kid going to a Girl Scout meeting.

However, my mind is cluttered and clouded and here I am at the end of the day having only accomplished half of what I intended and feeling like the day is crawling. I’ve determined I’d rather look at the clock and wonder where the time went, even it meant not getting everything done, than look at the clock and see how much empty time is left to fill. We eat dinner so early that evenings without dance kind of crawl by.

Blogging about what I need to do actually helps in some ways. It’s kind of like that first step- admitting you have a problem. I need to pull together Daisy’s lessons for the week and sew countless ribbons/elastics on various ballet shoes. Sewing is fun- mending is just a chore and I hate chores.

None of it’s hard- I’m just in a mood, and not a good one, I guess. I think it’s still the boredom but I also think there’s a bit too much going on in my head so I’m doing the ostrich in the sand thing assuming it will all go away if ignored. It never does though, does it?

I did start my day off with a long workout though. First time in way too long. Tiring, but I never felt like I couldn’t finish. And my pants were falling off me all day today so I guess I should go shopping. I’d rather not because no matter how loose these feel, I know if I try a size smaller, they will be tight, uncomfortable, unflattering, and a little bit soul crushing. Can’t say it’s a fun experience.

Hey, speaking of fun. (aren’t I always? they are almost all I think about these days. seriously need new stuff for my brain). Anyway, I mentioned before they co-founded The Ally Coalition and the coalition is asking for volunteers for the fun. concerts. Since we are in fact going to one next month we figured we’d volunteer, but the information makes it seem like we’d miss part of the concert. Um, as much as I would love to help spread the word, I’m not flying to a concert to miss part of that concert. So here’s me doing my part.

If you are a straight ally to the LGBTQ community, consider liking The Ally Coalition Facebook page. They do not do constant posts, so no worries of a clogged newsfeed. If you want to take it a step further, you can donate at their website or even join with a membership (which is what both Chris and I did).

All right, I’m off my soapbox- this time. I’ll be back up it soon enough, goodness knows.

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